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From Stephanie’s Journal

Reflections on storytelling, healing, faith, prevention, and the moments that help us move forward.

Are You Entertained

It tears through me, the sound of your voice. Mere proximity to leaves me weak in the  knees as I forget how to breathe. Loving you was never a conscious choice. Common sense and logic cease at the mention of your name. Now, irrevocably altered pieces of me are all that remain. A knowing smile...

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Unashamed

Recently, I had an experience I had not had since high school. Those of you here who know me know that I was very middle of the road by the time high school rolled around. I was in no way popular, but I wasn’t exactly ostracized. Too often then I care to remember I was...

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Wildflowers

Dear Wildflower, I didn’t know how much I missed you until I watched you bloom vibrant and new. Your presence brought me so much joy. I had forgotten the depth of your colors and calming effects of your beautiful scent. I began to wake up excited and anticipating moments with you. Suddenly as you came...

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Center Stage

Why did God let all these bad things happen in my life? I will never be good enough so what is the point of being obedient? Look at how far I must climb just to be level with everyone else. Does God even really care about my minuscule meaningless life? Even if he does care,...

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Cheap Seats

 I once read a quote by Andre Gide that said, “everything has been said before, but since nobody listens, we have to keep going back and beginning all over again”. With that thought in mind I want to unpack worthiness. I know what you are thinking. Haven’t you already beaten this dead horse? You are...

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Changing

Silence my revelation because you are grasping at self-preservation Memories long ago painted over and rewritten For you it was nothing but a moment, a passing second But my trust and world view were shaped through your hesitation Watching as your shoulders tense and jaw clench Instantaneously you are on the defense My thoughts are...

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“The List”, Explained

“The thought swirls around and around, rekindling the frustration of a little girl who prayed and wished someone would just step in. The list of people who should have done more had grown quite a bit by the time I hear Maxine call my name.” On the phone with a friend, which is how many...

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The List

Don’t you see me? Sitting third row from the front A terrifying night has me drifting in and out of sleep Not compassion, but harsh frustration wakes me up Bruises catch your eye and soften your words Only thing more obvious were my lies, so well-rehearsed Question’s hang in between Your silence makes me want...

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Vulnerable

Give me a battle to fight I will dawn my armor and be your knight Give me a war to wage I am comfortable standing in rage Give me a cause to defend I will weaponize my words using rhetoric to win I am a warrior A Justice restorer I will happily fight give all...

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Inevitability of Change

The other day I was on the phone with my partner in crime listening to her vent about the complexities of the teenage social realm she is trying to help her kiddos navigate. when her daughter chimed in with a complaint about how certain friends have changed. I listened and cringed as I remembered the...

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